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I have been trying to figure out exactly what it is I am interested in. I like sounds and moving pictures and exploration of cities and finding where people connect to their environments. I like there being a playful aspect to this, though this is not often communicated through colour.

During my holidays I have spent a lot of my time making, but this has all been textile rather than video or conceptual. I have been reflecting on my year and the aspects I want to take with me into this year are systems of connection and the ways people interact with it. How the personal and bureaucratic interact. What makes me so happy is when people bypass the systems which have been put into place, because their power often only lies in us continuing to abide by fears or signs which are not actually actively being policed.

The ways in which we navigate spaces is so funny and sweet, and we are creatures that seek logic and answers. So much of what we do is just repetitive puzzles, it is fun and challenging to step out of this and challenge ourselves with risks that result in pleasure, which is what I think the drains were for me. I would not partake in cave clan, and I do not identify with the urbex subculture, but coming in and out of these spaces emphasised how people have the same desires. We want to giggle and love and have a rush and learn.

Parts of my identity which inform and influence this include my gender, economic position and race, and I need to narrow down what it is that interests me. Listing my influences is the place to begin this year. I need to articulate how my inspirations and social biases influence my interests and what I am making art about.

I have been thinking a lot about colours as well. In my work last year it involved a lot of raw material like concrete and PVC, resulting in the final work to be very grey and muted, which juxtaposes the rest of my life and what I make. I wear a lot of colour and I use a lot of coloured fabric when I sew, or make textile work. Maybe it is that colour is secondary and form, shape and texture come first.

I really enjoyed how in my final crit I was able to spatialise sound and direct it to play with the audience. I think it spoke to the idea of confined freedom, and the joy that is created when initially exploring these spaces. over timeit becomes repetitive and loses it’s pleasure, its the excitement of seeing something for the first time. Maybe this can be further explored using projected light and more pockets of sound. I could turn back to the sounds created in my own routine, a day of the sounds my body creates. In typing, brushing, sipping, cooking.

But I think instead of creating a larger more serious sound work, I think I just want to focus of the playful nature of its physicality, how we can use noises as a way to place ourselves in spaces. Laughing and filler noises as a social cushion.

In terms of fabric, I want to look at translucent fabrics and layering of colours and patterns when connected and how the threads form a larger confusing body. I want to research artists who have explored this, looking into textile techniques, and how I can combine sounds and pictures with this layering. Am I still interested in infrastucture? What is it that I like?